25 Things About You and Your Submission

This is for the Submissive Guide Blog Hop Challenge. Please check out the other submissives/slaves that participated – Autumn Raine Skye, luna KM, Vanille, Rosalind Gypsy, Larissa G, Girl Deviante, kinky bloke, bella, Dragons kitten, Karin Neko, 13, & Sally

25 things about me and my submission:

1: I am a Pet

Definitions of Pet: (noun)

1. a: a pampered and usually spoiled child b: a person who is treated with unusual kindness or consideration

• I know I am pampered. My Sir takes very good care of me. I would also say that I am somewhat spoiled, but I appreciate what I have. I think when you come from having nothing that anytime when you don’t have to struggle you feel like you are pampered or spoiled.

2. a domesticated animal kept for pleasure rather than utility

• It’s the utility part that I have trouble with. I feel like I have to be a working pet. I want to feel that I contribute. I am not able to work full-time and serve at the same time. I actually only work outside the home a little bit. It does bother me that I don’t bring in much money and I try to make up for it by taking care of the house. I can fix most anything so I do save us a lot of money.

2: For the longest time I thought I was a lesbian and didn’t think I would ever be with a man full-time.

• While I find women way more attractive than men, I am really attracted to dominant personalities. I love my Sir so much and think he’s the sexiest thing ever, in part because he knows how to use me in all the right ways.

3: I didn’t have sex until I was 19. My first time was with my gay best friend at the time. It wasn’t the best and reinforced my lesbianism.

4: I didn’t know what a clitoris was until I was 18 and I was 20 before I had my first orgasm.

5: I was raised in a home that believed that a man was the stronger sex and the head of the household. I learned that as a woman I had to be subservient to everyone.

6: The internet was how I found out that I didn’t have to be subservient and vanilla. I learned that I could be submissive and still have my needs met. I didn’t have to be like the women in my family.

7: As a child I would beg my mom to buy me cops and robbers gun/handcuff sets. I just loved the handcuffs.

• And I still do. I am the most happiest when I am restrained and helpless.

8: I love bondage. I have loved the feel of rope and other material on my skin for as long as I can remember.

• As a child I used to tie myself up. Later I would use duct tape because I loved the pain of ripping it off. Once I found out about cuffs and collars, sex toy websites became like porn to me.

9: My submission is very sexual for me.

• Serving has a way of turning me on. I don’t think I could ever serve someone long-term without some form of sexual intimacy. When I submit to someone my body is theirs.

10: When I met my Sir I felt like I was meant just for him.

• He was the one in my fantasies, the person I would picture fucking me when I touched myself. He was the person whose hands I wanted around my throat. He had the voice that I needed to hear, telling me that I was his and that I lived only for him.

11: I don’t like that our relationship looks like a typical, heterosexual, monogamous relationship where the man is in charge because he is the man. We are really both bisexual, we have an open relationship, and I submit to him, not because he is a man, but because that’s how we like it.

12: I crave praise. I am ecstatic whenever I hear that I am a good girl or that Sir is proud of me.

13: I love images and stories of woman being tied up and used, especially outside.

• My favorite porn sites are Bound Gang Bangs, Sex and Submission, and Public Disgrace. I do not wish to spend the money on all of those sites so I look around the web for free stuff or for specific shoots to purchase. If Kink.com ever came out with a deal to have access to all of their sites I would go for it. Oh, and I love Padded Kink, but they don’t offer many freebies.

14. I think large women are the bomb.

• Yes, I know I just had gastric bypass, but I do love large women. I loved my large body most of the time. For me it came down to my health. I need to be healthy to take care of my Sir, but that doesn’t stop me from loving other large women and thinking they are super sexy.

15. I love being mostly a stay at home pet.

• I do however feel a lot of guilt. I work hard to remember that my “job” is to take care of my Sir and I can’t do that as well when I work outside of the home. Yes, I know this comes up in a few places on my list but it is something that I really struggle with.

16. I am a medical oddity.

• I had a brain tumor and a half-inch hole in my heart. There are many reasons why I shouldn’t be here right now, but for some reason I am. I try to stay healthy, but I am prone to catching everything.

17. I am terrified to be alone. When I am in a relationship, even if it isn’t working, I won’t leave until I find someone else. I haven’t been out of a relationship since I was 18.

18. I have been polyamorous. (see #17) They haven’t worked out and I have sustained a lot of heartache along the way. I have figured out that I am not cut out for poly. I require too much and have a hard time sharing.

19. The last poly relationship hurt the most, but it did help my relationship with Sir.

• As a submissive I felt like I should be lucky to just have someone and not talk about my needs and wants. I focused so much on the other person(s) and neglected myself. This only lasted so long, but it lasted for years. When it got to be too much to take I would get resentful.
• My relationship with Sir was at the point that I was unhappy, but I didn’t recognize it for what it was. I thought that maybe adding someone else would make me happy, but I felt like she just wanted him. I almost left and probably would have if there had been anyone to go to.
• I stayed and began to realize that I need to be open about my needs and wants. I found my voice. In the time since it has gone back to the two of us things have really improved. I am happy once again.

19. I cry, a lot. I am super sensitive.

20. I love animals more than people.

• I just saw Hachi: A Dog’s Tale and I am still upset about it days later. It is loosely based on the story of  Hachiko, a dog who waited outside the train station for years, hoping that his dead human would come home.
• They say you only get one great dog in your life. Mine was my cocker that I had for 16 years. I wouldn’t be here without her. I miss her so much and hope that she isn’t waiting for me to come home to her and is enjoying whatever dogs do when they pass.

21. I believe that when we die we will get the answers to every question we asked when we were alive.

22. I believe in the Voluntary Human Extinction movement. The only children I have and will ever have will be furry and will be in need of a home. Rescues make great fur kids.

23. I have strong political opinions. My Sir says that everyone does better when everyone does better and I agree. I think we need to take care of the planet and all that lives on her.

24. I dislike Bobby Flay. Silly I know, but he disrespected the original Iron Chefs and I have not been able to forgive him. I may dislike him, but I really hate Michael Vick. I am all for castration of animal and child abusers. I just checked up on how the pits are doing at Best Friends. They are true miracles.

25. To go along with 24 – I have a hard time forgiving others, or maybe I just have a hard time getting over things. Bad things that happened to me years ago are still with me. I am trying to work on this.